Below are the 21 most recent journal entries.

	2005.05.23  00.27 um, i am a bored little KID!!! Sometimes when i get bored i get online and listen to music and talk online, i am a loser and that is my life, what can a girl even do? I am going to a punk rock concert thursday, my friends band is playing and i am excited to hear them live, there you kids go who want an update in my life Mood: accomplished Music: gravity by the RILO!!!

	2005.05.02  00.19 Um, Sunshine is sometimes bad! Today was nice, I got to eat with my mother I had pancakes! Then we went to the library, I rented movies, momento and monty python and the holy grail i watched them both and american history X on my computer! but not the 1st two and then i cleaned my room a little bit and chatted on the internet! Everyone is sad though that i am leaving Kamans! I am sad too, but happy at the same time! The cons just out weighed the pros! Sorry everyone! except mindy! She needs to chill out with that superiority thing she has going, no one is happy with it! hint hint! I hope everyone at Kamans will still love me and Eve will still come for dinner and a movie! I miss fred! school work needs to improve i am not very proud of it! and i should be!

	2005.04.28  21.18 Um, Seriously So I can't stand being a teenager, like knowing what you want but not being able to go and get it! I am a BAD communicator(sp) and a I am abad speller!! I can't tell people how i feel, like it never comes out right! They all think i mean something totally different then what i really mean! Nothing ever goes right, for example all the guys i talk to think that i am hitting on them and all of the girls think that i am gay and they are scared or people don't think either but they think i am sooo mean, which i am but like i have tried to change but that is the way that i am like i am soo opinionated, There is nothing i can do that i haven't already tried! I feel so stuck! So, no apart of anyhting, the only people i can relate to are soo much older than me or yeah they are just soo much older than me! Well fuck GOD i can't stand it anymore i will do something else! Then Coleman said he didn't know if he was mad at me or not so i don't even know what is going on there! It seems everytime i do something it is sooo wrong, none of my desicions are right! So i'm making a completely new setting for myself and But i LOVE Eve!!! I will totally miss everyone! But i have 2 weeks so it doesn't matter, i mean i will have time to say goodbye to everyone! Whatever, LOVE to all and to all a goodnight! Mood: sad and angry and happy too! Music: Rainer Maria The double life

	2005.04.24  01.27 HOW much I love and ADORE Coleman! So much I CAN;t EVEN stand myslef anymore! I aam equally filled with love and hate. not for coleman that is allllll LOVE but i mean in general, i hate a lot and I love a lot! and that is how my world spinns! Mood: sick and sleepy Music: Nothing the beat my my pure heart!

	2005.04.20  18.48 Um, Positive from now on!!!!!! I am soo negitive! I want to stop, I am going to try to be positive all of the time! Have you ever seen the movie HARVEY? I want to be just like Edward P Dowd I will try! I am not going to prom! Love to all! Mood: sick and sad! Music: Rilo Kiley Go Ahead

	2005.04.18  21.40 Um, Prom? I want to got to prom, just so i can wear a wedding dress! But I have a problem, I NEED a Date! I asked Coleman, because i didn't want to go alone and he turned me down the little FUCKER! Well he is the only one i have asked, he is the only one i know out goining enought to go with a girl that is wearing a wedding dress! What in the fuck am i going to do? Go alone, i'm not any good alone! Not go? maybe that is the answer? But, fuck complications! Mood: yes! Music: Rainer Maria

	2005.04.12  22.43 Um, I am Depressed I am bored, I need excitment, nothing is exciting to a 16 year old high schooler. Maybe it is lack of action? Lack of something I know that! Um, some one break something! Boring Boring Boring, i need to go somwhere, I will go to Pheonix! To see rotting people i haven't seen since i was a wee little child! I don't know, someone give me something to do that isn't work related? I would kill for something like that! Mood: awake Music: Rainer Maria

	2005.04.05  17.26 Um, Emo is my Favourite!! I'm very tired of the world. Nothing seems to fit, no one understands. But I pretend to be happy? For what? The happiness of others? I suppose. I'm made for other peoples' pleasure????? What in the FUCK!!! But then isn't everyone, if I am? This is a very emo entry. But today I am melancholy. Upset at something. On a happier note: I got two new bows a really thick shinny red one for work and a cute yellow and red one with ladybugs on it, it is so cute.....HOLY CHRIST!! A CUTE ATTACK!!!!!!! I have bad grades this semester 3 cs and one a how crappy! And an even happier note: I just downloaded some really cool indian techno, I'm so excited! and cindy Lauper God I love her! My friend is moving back to Iceland and so I'm burning him CDs to listen to on the airplane, I'm going to miss him so much! He is a LOVE. So I am burning him Rilo Kiley CDs, all of the ones that I have which is I'm pretty sure is all of them, thanks to precious Ben! Thank you again! I finished my painting of the Icelandic friend, my teacher adores it, and the Greatest Artist in our school came over and sincerely complimented me, and I almost pissed my pants! I was really happy. Ok enough of updating and spilling my inside feelings just because I can't see anyones' eyes so see the disgust! !!!!!!!!LOVE TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOODNIGHT!!!!!!!!! Mood: that means indifferent Music: Indian Techno, DUH, what else!

	2005.04.02  16.54 Um, movies are my life, after work! So I got a cell phone and I think everyone needs to know how proud I am that I'm moving up in this technological world! I don't have to work until next Saturday and I'm so excited! To just do what I want to do is fantasic! Coleman thinks it is funny that I text messaged his phone, but I'm not doing it ever again because he laughed at me! What an ass! I have this painting to finish and I'm excited about getting back to it! Nothing is happening right now; I might watch a movie because i haven't in like 100 sqillion years! I might watch BeetleJuice! Now I have to go I'm too excited about MOVIESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! Mood: and Excited, duh when am I not Music: alanis moressette Let's Do It

	2005.03.30  21.07 Um, I HATE Hairwrapping! Well, Today was not a very good day for me, somethings that happened were awesome; then others were the worst! I had to repremand, someone and I HATED it, it wasn't even my discovery, I was sad. Then Coleman's Mother, who I ADORE, made me this really awesome as anything hat and it is PINK and BEAUTIFUL! I love it. I had to hairwrap for almost 7 straight hours, I hate hairwraping, it is my least favourite! I'm there all week and next weekend! I DON'T NEED ANYMORE PRACTISE! I'm sick of peoples' heads, no more dandruff for me! No more little kids screaming that it is too tight, FUCK THEM! Stupid little kids! But I love them anyway! My little cousin, Abigail, haha I mean Annabelle, lost her first tooth today! I ADORE her! She is so tiny and cute! Coleman and I are talking more and I'm excited about that! And talking like chit chat not "talking" I HATE the new lingo for high schoolers, it is rather pointless! Fuck High Schoolers! and I need to take a shower! I got new stockings, well they are over the knee socks and they have little white bows on the front! Oh, How I ADORE bows! I am so weird now that I think about it, no other kid is as childish as I am. I feel missplaced! I am a loser outsider wannabe cool kid, but I'm really just a loser! and I HATE everything except for Coleman's Mother and Bows haha I crack myself up! Well, my life is boring so I will stop torturing you, BYE!!!!!! Mood: I HATE hairwraps Music: the Dresden Dolls Coin Operated Boy!

	2005.03.29  22.13 Cell Phones! Daryllynn is sitting at the computer night now; she isn't doing much just as normal, looking for a cell phone plan. Nothing seems to please her mother even though she is trying. But still she sits here and listens to her mother fight and yell at her about sucky plans she can't control. We will be back later! Mood: sort of! Music: Nina Simone! Just like Tom Thumb's Blues

	2005.03.28  19.56 Um, Sometimes I click my heels 3 times and disappear! I wish I were somewhere else in my life, I don't feel like I belong anywhere, maybe most of the time at work, because a lot of people like me there, I think?!?! I know Fred, likes me, and pretty sure Bill and everyone else does but I'm not like them, the most I think I'm like Coleman, but we don't hang out anymore, which makes me sad as anything! Life is boring, like I need to do things besides work and sleep, which is what I do now! I want to make all of the starving men, women and children in New York City sanwiches! That would be tre exciting! But I don't have enough money for that, no matter how much I wish I could take all of my summer savings and give it all to those drunken bastards!, I can't. So that is the way the world spins!, under my nose! Ha Ha I'm a lunatic! and I use a lot of exclamation points! Whatever God will show his face someday! Mood: with life! Music: the Dresden Dolls Good Day

	2005.03.27  23.42 I am in LOVE but no one knows! I'm in love! I can't stand it anymore.. Mood: loved Music: no music tonight

	2005.03.25  20.35 STUPID FUCKS! So kids in my field biology class were talking about the war on terriorism, and they said just to nuc the entire middle east and i couldn't help myself and i was asking him if he knew he would be killing poor innocent little helpless defensless mommies and daddies and babies and animals and cute things and so many other things, he was like i didn't think of it that way, maybe this is why you are not in the government! but he is stupid and didn't really take in what i said, just how i said it with such empathy i LOVE myself! Mood: accomplished Music: the Dresden Dolls

	2005.03.25  20.01 LIFE AS A STUFFED GIRAFFE Um, another song of mine! it is called Life as a Stuffed Giraffe In a toy store there are things for sale People will buy them and I was standing there with a price tag stuck on my head on a shelf that all the toys that couldn't sell were placed B/c I'm not good enough for you or for me If you would let me maybe i could be good enough for everyone for everyone But that won't happen if i don't get the chance to prove myself worthy for her or for him her or for him A mom came into the toy store with her five and a half year old daughter she came to the shelf that all of the toys that couldn't sell were placed she picked me out of the bunch she kept me close in her arms then i knew at once that i can be good enough for her and for me she gave me the chance and i knew i could be good enough for her and for me her and for me! Mood: and hurt all at once Music: the Dresden Dolls Good Day

	2005.03.24  21.37 Laughing on Roller Coasters Today, during school, I was carrying my painting to each class and of course I'm totally awesome at painting so everyone was asking me to view it, and I was like, "Of course!" So they would and would always exclaim how good I was, and that is nice and all because, well compliments are, but too many in one day is ruff. Like, I always get told how cool and cute and funny and awesome I am everyday like 20 billion times and then that I'm and awesome painter as well was like torture! This one teacher asked to see it, so I let her and she asked if I did it and I said, Of course! and then she was arguing with me like no you didn't , yes I did, no you didn't, yes I did! What a stupid BLACK bitch! But the rest of the day was fun, Hana and I went to Busch Gardens. When I get on roller coasters, instead of screaming I laugh, really, really hard! So everyone on the roller coaster was laughing too, at ME! It was so embarrassing! Mood: haha Music: helter skelter or whatever (my brother)

	2005.03.21  13.57 Um, I'm Negitive I'm at home from school today because my mother is so cool and let me because I've worked a lot and I've made some really bad choices, such as not going to sleep when I should have, that is pretty much it. I look like so much shit right now! I really need some food in my stomach, but it doesn't look good, for I'm allergic to it. If God were nice then everything would be ok, but since he is a mean bastard I'm afraid we are all going to suffer and that is my outlook on life. Mood: but not all at the same time Music: It's a Hit Rilo Kiley

	2005.03.19  22.44 I Love turtles Oh god how I wish I weren't such an insomniac, I could get so many less things accomplished, and life could be good. Ha ha just kidding! But I do wish i could get to sleep, I feel drugged though I know I'm not. Right now I feel about 70 years old. My lips are burning. I think that I am sick with some awful God Hates Daryllynn disease. That bastard. But, um, the world is still spinning and Miss Daryllynn will live on and breathe and think and make it through this shitty world, but I do love myself, don't get me wrong. Love Peace and Chicken Grease! Mood: tired Music: None, the wonderful voice of my mother

	2005.03.18  20.10 Harry the Hippo and Timmy the Turtle I'm just a turtle yes, I'm just a turtle I look like a rock, I know I look like a rock I was just leisurly swimming, leisurly swimming in a lake That's when I spotted this real big blubbery thing So, I went up to it, I went up to it to see I poked it a lot and it turned right around to me He noticed that I was animate and he took right to me He said his name is Hippo Hi Hi Hi Hippo That was the start of our relationship Hippos and turtles can make friends Hippos and turtles can make friends Hippos and turtles can may hay ake frinds Hippos and turtles can make frinds Hi, my name is Timmy the Turtle Hi, my name is Harry the Hippo And we can be friends We can be he ee friends Today and tomorrow we can be friends That is the latest song that I, Daryllynn, have written! and I LOVE it! Mood: excited Music: Harry the Hippo and Timmy the Turtle

	2005.03.17  20.00 My Dear Love, Hana! Um, since that I am so cool I have a live journal and am using it. Hana and I went to the Prime Outlets and picked out clothes together and bags together. If she weren't a senior i would be completely happy, but she is and will be leaving our school this year and I will cry. She is my best friend ever and. Well, I love her! Um, she bought me a beautiful blue sweater today and I'm wearing it this minute! It is so comfy. I'm not really one for spilling my guts on the internet! Mood: amused Music: none

	2005.03.16  21.49 Um no subject Fred Gonzalez just Instant messaged me and now I am in bliss. Mood: amused